babydoll

Today

itslucy:

so much love. heeheehee.

I HAD $5 IN MY BRA TODAY AND I FUCKING LOST IT. GODDAMN KEVIN WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FUCK WITH MY BOOBS OVER A RIVER?! GOD. FUCKING. DAMN. >:l

you’re always ending on a safe bet

things have been so crazy lately. and i haven’t care. and i don’t guess i really CARE now, but im getting my shit together. because i need to.

i’ve been to 3/12 classes this week. fuck dude. im SO gonna fail. all i’ve done is lie and lie and lie this week. it makes me feel like shit. it’s also really difficult. so i guess im done. for the most part.

(@AIMEE) last night, i got in huge trouble with my parents because they caught me in some lies. it was some bullshit. but its okay now. so no worries [:

you know what you’re talking about

definitely. definitely. definitely.

get out now. I’m tired of your shit. I hate you. I hope you die. I hope you die and go to hell. I don’t wish death on people. but you? you’re different. get out. go to hell. I hope you die.

nothing pisses me off more

than when someone who is completely ignorant about something pretends that they have all the answers.

you always say you miss me

but when we’re together, you ignore me.

so shut up. quit using me to get attention from her.

(no, im not talking about kevin.)

@itslucy

(this was before our big fight)

me and kevin were sitting in his bed and i was texting you. and then he was like “ooo if i was single..” i just laughed and said “ooo if i was a lesbian..”

kevin said something like “we should totally have a threesome” and then i laughed and then i made a :l face and was like “yeah totally” and then i laughed and then he laughed and then he made a :l face and was like “really?” and this went on for a while.

laugh
:l face
“but no rly”

and then we texted you.

and he was all like “omg she’s in!”

laugh
:l face
“but no rly”

ahahaha. it was some funny shit.

how can he not get it?

lauren texted kevin today saying “today smells like when you used to get me early to sleep at your house. sorry, i just can’t get the thought out of my head.”

what the fuck.

the weird part was that today, kevin picked me up early to sleep at his house before school. but that might just be some irony. or some bullshit. idk.

the point is that i was upset about it. i don’t want to be that crazy girlfriend thats like “DONT TALK TO HERRRRR D:<” but i really DONT want him to talk to her.

SO. heres how it all happened. me and kevin were sleeping. it was like around 10 and his phone had been buzzing for like an hour. he was really heavily asleep, so i was just gonna press some buttons until it shut up. but when i looked at it, i saw that it was from lauren. and i kinda had to read it, yknow? then i read it and i was like WTF.

i went down stairs and called aric. he’s on spring break, so i knew he’d answer. i still had kevins phone and i kinda went through it. I FEEL REALLY BAD ABOUT THAT. but idk. i just. i couldn’t NOT.

he has a lot of calls to/from her for like 30 minutes and he went and picked her up like 2 days ago. thats not really a big deal, except for the fact that when i talked to him about it later (i didn’t mention the calls & the ride, only the first text), he said “i could see how it would be a problem if i talked to her a lot, but i barely ever talk to her.”

IM PRETTY SURE IN-PERSON-CONTACT AND 30 MINUTE PHONE CALLS COUNTS AS TALKING TO HER A LOT.

but i digress, i dont wanna be one of those crazy bitch girlfriends. which i totally am for the fact that i read through his phone. and i hate myself for doing that. i was just really pretty worried and apparently, i should be? I DONT KNOW.

every time i mention something about lauren he says “well don’t worry about it, babydoll, she don’t want me no more.” but its never “i dont want her anymore.”

its really some stupid bullshit. but the reason im pissed is that he acts like i dont get to be mad. THEY DATED FOR TEN MONTHS. of course im gonna feel threatened! i don’t want him to tell me “oh baby. you got nothing yo worry about. you’re the only girl i want”. i want him to not defend her. i want him to not talk to her. i want her to not exist to him.

but i can’t do all that. so im not sure WHAT to do. fuckmylife.

i dont see what the harm is

in spending the night with a friend.

obviously you can see im not alright. i don’t see how it would be bad for me to be comforted by a friend. how would i be any better in this house, listening to your fights and complaints?

so please, please just let me go over there.

btw:

kevin knows all about it. and he’s cool with it. so yeah. just so you know.

today was the best day of my life

here’s how it all went down.

kevin told me he couldn’t pick me up today. i was completely lost. i didn’t know how i was getting home or what i was gonna do and it SUCKED. i felt like such a loser.

so in first period, i was texting loosi. and we decided to hang out. (:D YAY FRIENDS!)

after school, i saw her and she was with cate and sierra and they were coming with us and i was like “OHHAY MORE FRIENDS?! SCORE!!!”.

sin #1 - we stole grape soda from dollar general

we walked to cate’s and awkwardly sat there for a long time until we decided to leave. we went out into the street and were just chillin, talking about where to go, and we stuck out our thumbs and hitched a ride from this old dude. he took us to the cave and dropped us off in the street.

sin #2 - hitch hiking

i was like “hey lets go to tim’s and ask his roomates for rides”. so we went in and were just chillin for a few seconds and i was like “omg. kevins keys. lets steal his car.” i was kinda kidding, but we were all like “SURE! LETS DO IT!”

sin #3 - stole a car
sin #4 - driving without a license

it didn’t have a lot of gas, but we made it to sierras. while we were there, we all borrowed clothes from her and got some money from her step mom for gas. we went to the gas station and then to the park.

we parked at the playground and walked through the woods (barefoot and crippled, i was) to the skate park. cate’s mom was supposed to pick her up there, but by this time it was 6:20 and we were all late getting home, so i told her i could just take her home and we went back to the car.

we dropped off cate, picked up our stuff, and went back to tim’s. we parked kevin’s car in a different spot and turned up the radio real loud just to fuck with him. ahaha.

so the three of us go in tim’s house and we’re like “LETS FUCK UP HIS SHIT FOR APRIL FOOLS”. so we put all his bathroom’s contents in his tub, moved some furniture, flipped all his things upside down, put a hammer in his bed (WTF), put his curtains on his closet (using office desk tape, hahaha WIN.), and various other shit.

sin #5 - fucking up tim’s shit

then we stole some coke and left. WHAT A GREAT DAY. omgomgomgomg.